Hi again everyone,
I have to start by apologizing for the lack of blogging as of lately, its been pretty busy the last few weeks with mid term papers to do, a weekend away for the reformation trip and the last week I've been in Sweden with no internet.
So I don't really know where to start today, so just a quick update on what has been going on in the college since the last time I posted. I'm up to date on all my homework, very surprises at that, back in school I was behind a lot, but I guess when your doing homework you like it gets done. But the homework really has been a blessing, its made me look at the Bible in a new way and really digging for treasure in some of those verses, and the results have been a blessing. God reveals himself all the more during this work and a lot of the time I don't even realise it. So something amazing has happened during the last few weeks, God answered a big prayer of mine. You see, after the Reformation Trip we had my income was extremely low, I didn't even have enough to get a bus ticket back to Waterford when I would arrive back home. Things were looking a bit desparate. I have to admit this was my fault for not budgeting and examining the costs of everything wisely. I've seen that I need to take time to make decisions and do things instead of just deciding then and there without thinking. Funny enough I was described as a Peter during this Outreach week in a prayer, and even though the man was speaking about Peter's good qualities I also saw how I am this get up and go person who doesn't think as much as he should. God willing I'll be able to keep this lesson for the rest of my life. But anyway, without even being ready for this the dean of the men in the bible college, a man named Andrew Rann, had me meet him in his office and his church has donated me 592 dollars, I forget how much that is but it is a lot. I'm still in shock that a church who doesn't even know me in Califiornia would be so generous and be giving to a person who didn't deserve it, but I guess it just confirms the work of the Holy Spirit in these peoples lives and God answering prayers in my life, despite my faults. I'm really being shown that it's not in my strength that God does things, but in His.
I think I'll talk a bit about the Outreach Week now, if anyone wants to ask about the Reformation trip or anything else that has been happening feel free to send a comment or email me ( I'll be giving me address at the end of this blog ). Right so Saturday morning Me, Aden Knepper, Elijah Knepper, and our leader Ricky Ponce, left to get on a train for Weeve airport, and then got the plane to Stockholm. The plane ride wasn't as terrifying as last time, it was really fun in fact. I think I could get used to flying, and I just love being above the clouds, in my mind its pretty magical, and its amazing to just reflect that one day I'll be called up to those clouds to meet Jesus. So we got into Sweden city, after an other bus ride, around 11-12. So we had pretty much 12 hours of travelling that day, so I know I was tired, and I think the rest of the lads were too. Now when I got to Stockholm I was expecting some tall blonde Swedish man with a mustach to pick us up, then again I was watching the Swedish chef from the muppets before I left, but instead there was a short Lebanese man there to meet us, Richard. We would have an interestnig week with this man. We followed him and met up with the owner of the cafe where we would be staying and working. As we walked through Sweden there was so many drunk people it was unbelievable, and just people going crazy, it was a dark place we were in, despite the beauty of the city. So none of us really knew what to expect when we got to the cafe, but what we saw I couldn't have even imagined, it was in some undegroundish cellar like place, under a walkway and bridge. We went down through the side entrace, and in there was a huge office, a dance floor, with built in disco lights that Ricky used to wake us up, and a cafe that looked like a night club. Turns out it used to be a night club, and there was a lot of work to do. It was mostly painting and construction but with four guys and basic equipment it took the whole week to get about 2/3 of the stuff done. That night we also met the pastor of the church in Stockholm, Joel. So after putting our stuff down we got out these leather cushion/mat things and went to sleep in the dance room, it was pitch black so there was no lights to keep us awake, or to wake us up. On sunday morning we had breakfast we had lunch and walked around the city. I won't get into describing the city too much because I have many pictures that I will put on facebook soon that describe it better. We went around all the old buildings, the palace (Sweden has a king and queen) and Old Town, the tourist place. We eventually found a quiet place to sit down and prqay together for each other, the week and for the city. That evening we went to the church and listened to a man named Mats teach a sermon on changing perspectives. Afterwards we got into groups and prayed for each other, and it was a real blessing. Then as we left another great thing happened, it begen to snow! Needless to say I was delighted, I don't think anyone else was though. So Monday morning we began our work after being awoken by disco lights and given the schedule of things to do. We had to doa lot of painting, with three colours, dark and light purple, which ended up being pink, and white, shiny shiny white. We learned that Richard is obsessed with his colours, about every hour every day he would ask in his Lebenese style did we like the colours. It was pretty funny, but its great to see that he cared so much about the cafe. It was a blessing to have him there, he even cooked Lebanese food for us, and made couscous and humas. Also David, the cafe owner, apparantly talks and sounds like Daniel from the original Karate kid, although I've never seen it so I don't know. It was just all work through the week. Once or twice we went out and Aden and Ricky played worship music on the streets. Some people stopped and listened for a bit, it was good. We also went through the book of Jonah, which I had never read before and that was a real blessing, I love his prayer to God in chapter 2. On wednesday night we went over to Joels apartment for a shower and to watch a movie and have pizza. We watched Salt, with Angelina Jolie, and it was actually a good movie, it was a pleasant surprise. We talked with Joel a lot also and he spoke some wise words that have stuck to me heart. Thursday night we had a prayer meeting in his apartment with some members of the church, including David, Richard, a Swedish girl named Agnus and a man from the next town name Jonas, who it turned out was actually the bassist in a popular black metal band. Didn't expect that. But yeah it was really great praying together for one another. After that Joel tried this thing out, as God had spoken to his heart things concerning us, and they were relavent to each of us. For me he said the verse from 2 Corinthians 10:3-4:
For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. During this time here in Germany God has been giving me a heart to pray, and is showing me the importance of it. I keep praying that he teaches me the value and the strength of prayer, to give me a heart to pray and to give me words to pray, especially when praying out loud. This is something I really want. And what Joel said to me was that he sees great things, strongholds being torn down because God has been having me pray to Him, and that I will see that it is one of our greatest weapons, one that isn't of flesh but divine and of the Spirit. It really spoke to my heart, considering my prayer just for prayer. The verse reminded me of Waterford, with all its towers and walls, a stronghold city. If great things are going to happen there its only going to happen with the power of prayer, I don't have the strength to do it and I realise it, I really need to stop trying to be perfect and just live as I am for God, because I'm far from perfect. So people keep praying for me, because we all need prayer. We left last night around five, after many hugs, goodbyes, and prayer for one another, it was a really blessed week of just growing and serving God in a physical way. I really enjoyed it. We got to the airport in Germany around 11:15 and got to the villa close to 2, it was good to be home and sleep in a bed. So thats what's been happening lately, the term is almost over and I cannot wait to get back to Waterford and just serve God, I'm counting down the days till I get to do this and see my family and friends again.
Now I have to do one thing. One thing I learnt this week is that if I really want to be a man of God, and to help lead people and grow them in God one day I have to be open, and truthful, despite what people will think. So I guess to start this kind of thing off I'm just going to share my testimony of how I came to Christ, the full thing. This might seem strange to people who know me, family, friends etc. and you might not agree with anything I'm going to say, and you can have an oppinion, I'm fine with that, but having an oppinion never garuntees that you are right, and this is just how I have seen myself coming to Christ. Before I get into this I just want to say I have had a lot of good things happen to me and in my life before I came to Christ, I was blessed with a loving family and many things, but the point of this isn't to give you a history lesson of my life, but rather to show God's glory and what he has done in my life by bringing me to him.
Right so lets start. I was born into an Irish Catholic family and had a pretty good childhood. Even though I went to a Catholic school and had a Catholic family I didn't take a personal interest in God. At the age of ten my parents split up, and being honest it really hurt, and even though I knew it wasn't my fault, as any child who's dad leaves and doesn't come around a lot you start to feel like you have done something wrong, and I was too stubborn to say anything to anyone and so I pretty much felt very broken, and I guess I became more anti-social then I would have been before. So around that time I was started to be bullied in school, and even though it wasn't physical, I was a pretty big kid, and it was only verbal abuse, I was in no right mind to just shrug it off or do anything about it, so it all just bottled up. So I went into secondary school at 12, and I wasn't any more popular there than I was in primary school, but the effects of my parents break up was going around this time, although I had very little love for my dad. Bullying started up again in school, people shouting insults and saying horrible things about me to me and not caring, and people just mentally hurting me. Again I wouldn't say anything, I had too much of a stubborn, prideful nature to admit that I was weak and needed help, I didn't want to believe it, even though people around me would have helped and some even offered to help. So as a result of this abuse and just loneliness I felt I began to eat more than I should, whenever I got upset. One day after school I was so upset I ran into Dunnes Stores, bought a whole cooked chicken and devoured the thing to eat up my emotions, and for a while I thought it was working. But with these kind of things they only fail and you seek some other way to get away from it all. Around the age of 16 I started drinking, at first for fun, but then as it went on and I got used to it and eating my feelings wasn't working, I would drink lots of alcohol to try and get rid of it all. My family did not know about this and you are probably only finding this out for the first time now, and if you are please be patient and forgiving now, as things don't get better at this point. This consuming of alcohol to hife my feelings could only be done on a summer and holiday basis as I had school the majority of the year. So instead of drinking during the school terms, I began self harming, or cutting myself in other words, to 'deal' with this problem. This is one of the most stupid things I have even done in my life, I don't know why I did this and I can say to anyone that it is not the way to deal with your problems. But thinking it would make a difference, I did it, and tried to keep it a secret. Once my family caught the marks on my arms and I was called out on it, but I played the pity part and lied to their faces to make it stop, for this I'm sorry, and I continued self harming up until around the age of 18, on a less frequent basis however. Around 17 I started getting friends again and got accepted into a group, it was great to have people I could relate to, but it was over our sinful deeds more than anything else. During this time I had done weed, although I broke away from that, and decided to join the LGBT community. So from around the age of 16 I convinced myself that I was bisexual and went to gay youth group meetings and gay rights activist movements. I know some people may not know this and some may.
So as you van see my life was pretty much out of control, I was just about to finish my leaving cert for the second time and I had no clue what I was going to do. During these years I had also been a living hell and nightmare to my family, being a horrible brother to my little brothers and sister, and an even worse son, to my dad but even worse to my mother, who had to bring up four kids by herself pretty much and try get to find a job and raise money to feed us and keep a roof over our head. She is an amazing woman and in inspiration and I couldn't ask for a better mother. Then after these teenage years the turning started. For a few summers a team of young people from Calvary Chapel Tucson in Arizona had been coming to Waterford to evangelize, and one of my friends got saved. Around this time I had decided to become a proper believing Catholic again. I still didn't believe the Bible, or read it, or even go to confession or church every week, but from the times I did I was convinced my works were enough to get me to heaven, along with Jesus. But my friend stresed that it wasn't works that saved us, but faith in Christ, and she even used the Bible to confirm this, but of course in my mind she was just converted into some cult from America, as she wasn't part of the Catholic Church. So for a while we would discuss, debate and almost argue over this. Then for a while it stopped, and I had many encounters with these born again Christians, and grew to resent them. Then eventually the man who had been coming down with his wife each week form Dundalk to teach my friend and other people the Bible moved down to Waterford, and eventually a church was to be started in Waterford City. My friend invited me to go, and my response in my mind was "No, I'm not going to some crazy cult", even though my lips said maybe. So eventually I had decided to go just because I said I would and to see for myself how wrong these peoples views on Christ and God was. So I missed the first sunday, and come on the second, and when I got these I was blown away from what I saw; people who knew each other and related to each other through Jesus, people singing to God in a way I had never seen before, they were happy to sing to God. They were praying, and it wasn't set prayers like the 'Our Father' or the 'Hail Mary' and what was probably most shocking was they were teaching the Bible, verse by verse, and it actually made sense to me, and it was like it was actually speaking into my heart. The first message I had heard speak to me from the Bible was the book of Romans, and it deeply convicted and moved me. I decided I would go to Calvary Waterford one week and the local Catholic church another week, but I never went back to the Catholic Church. Over the next month or so God started a real change in my heart, making me see that despite my pride saying otherwise that I was a sinner, and what more, that I was weak, completely weak in fact. I was shown that I was too weak to save myself, and I couldn't do it by doing good things, being a moralist trying to be a good person, because I am not a good person, and even if I spend the rest of my life doing good it doesn't replace the bad I've done. Also trying to be a religious person doing all the Catholic rituals and prayers, kissing statues, praying to dead people, and going to church would not save me either. I had come to realise that there was nothing I could do to go to heaven, but also learned that Jesus Christ was a real person, who lived on this earth, was God and died for us on a cross, taking the penalty for my sin and rose again in victory three days later and is now king. I turned to Jesus for my salvation and put my trust in him. I cannot remember the exact date when this happened, but during June of 2009 God come into my life and hasn't left. He has freed me from all the things I have mentioned above and is continuing to change my heart every single day. I now have someone greater than any person on earth that I can go to when I fail, or when I'm sad, and when I'm wrong, even though I am weak, and He accepts me as I am, and holds me in His arms and heals me. My life now is for Christ, and it will be forever. My heart has been taking off things of this worls, they dont have the same value as they used to. Now for me getting a career and becoming rich seems empty. I don't want to live for myself anymore but to live for God and His glory, and to show other people His glory. So here I am, Danny Keating, a sinner saved by the grace of God. Amen to that!
So that's it for this weeks folks, I really hope this blog was worth reading and I hope you enjoyed it, keep me in your prayers, as well as my family, my friends at home and here in bible college, for Siegen and for Waterford. If you want to contact me my address is
dannykeating1990@hotmail.com
God bless and thank you all,
Danny.